Perfection

Perfection is not something that is easily accomplished. Yet some people, such as myself, want thing to be a perfect as possible. And on big projects or final projects such as this one I find myself being extra attentive. The little things will get to me and I'll begin to question my thoughts or my ideas.
In this essay i began to realized that this would be my least perfect essay to date. This is because as my thought finally pulled together, i becan to find/gather to much information. It was almost as if i over loaded myself with information. Information that either did not fit or was over excessive. In the quest to write this perfect essay, it seems as though I did too much. A commonly known consequence of trying to gain perfection.
And as I learned this information I became more and more interested in my topic, and although I cannot necessarily write all about the information I have helped myself become more aware of the league.

Research- Previous Writing Styles

My research is not going so well. I have about 2 good sources and I am still trying to gather more. I went to the Pfau Library to look for the books about Riverside and I couldn't seem to find the books. I am so used to libraries have a strict organized structure about them and I could not seem to find any of the books I was looking for. Kind of embarrasing but completely true.
I feel as though I am doing a history report, I really am trying to find an emotional or personal connection to make the paper more of an English paper but as I said earlier I truely am having dificulties.

In my last English class I learned a couple of new writing technics. I learned that every time I write a paper I must read it out loud to make sure it makes sense. Also, the most important thing to my writing form last quarter was my writing group! Man, do I miss my writing group, our group helped each other soooo much. We would give each other ideas and give each other such harsh critics that we could only get better. I think in a sense I might of relied on my group a bit too much, just because I do not have an extrodinary imagination.

Finding A Topic

This research paper is one of the most difficult topics I have ever had to write on. I am not completely sure what about the prompt is s difficult but it seems as though I cannot focus my thoughts. My ideas are all over the place, I worry that my paper will not be that great. So far it seems as though I will be writing about Riverside, California. The history, landmarks, organization, or something to that sort. The problem that I might have is relating all this to the community, how can i relate all this to the community, or better yet all together. The other issue I face is, will I be able to reach 8 pages?
It is no secret that I am extremely worried about this essay. As it is our FINAL essay I am focusing on trying to make it the best essay I have written. Also, I want to leave a lasting impression on my peers and my professor.

So my essay is going to be about:
The Foundation of Riverside
The Mission Inn (Landmarks)
Riverside Girls Softball (Youth Althetics)

Thoose are the for sure topics, I am still not sure if there will be anything else included but that is the jist of it.

If anybody knows of any good books or websites about Riverside, California please let me know.

The In-Between

A discussion in class brought up an argument about which is better: being shelter or being out in the harshness of reality.I believe the truth holds that an even amount of both is needed. Without the other I think that a person will be in trouble.
Being too sheltered will leave a growing child in the dark about the harshness of society. The child will have no clue how to act with confrontation, personal obstacles or personal preservation. And when I say personal preservation I am not saying that everyone in society has to fend for their lives. I mean being sheltered does not allow someone to handle difficult situations in work, school, or even their social lives. Being too sheltered gives this 'perfect example' of how to fix problems, the sad truth is that nothing can have a perfect example. Every situation is different, meaning that every solution will be different. On the other hand facing reality everyday, all day is not a good thing either. Facing something as rough as reality daily can cause a person to become immune(in a sense) to the good and bad. Those kids tend to want to just survive, to live through the day is enough for them, no matter what they have done or seen. It also leaves those kids emotionally scarred.

Being from an overly sheltered family and being around other kids that were overly sheltered, it is extremely rough not being able to live. I know tons of kids that have come from sheltered families that tend to have just as many problems as those who come from reality. I know that being too sheltered, I wanted to get out and experience the world. So much that I left one extreme and went to the next. In that I say that it is better to have an even amount of both. This is becasue one without the other leads to some type of pain or failure. So in the end I believe that the best thing is an even amount of both.